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The Inquisitor's Jeremiad
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24th-Feb-2010 04:50 am - RIP Old Man
See you on the flip side.
28th-Nov-2009 06:59 pm - Pattern Recognition
People see what they expect. If I expect nothing but empty promises, what do I see when I look at you?
21st-Nov-2009 08:37 pm - Random Thoughts
I have found it rather interesting that, for such a large distance which I have traveled, I have found myself settling into familiar routines and patterns. This has become especially true for work, where I am once again part mentor, part trainer, part troubleshooter, and all-around computer fix-it-guy. This is not a bad thing, but it has led me to the conclusion that we have more power over our own relationships, and our own lives, than which we often give ourselves credit. Think about your own relationships, across contexts, and consider how much you find yourself making the same mistakes, or perhaps even doing the same good deeds. These choices, actions, and reactions are what guide us to our final situations.
9th-Nov-2009 09:33 pm - Huh.
Suddenly, I don't care anymore.
24th-Oct-2009 10:32 pm - Lessons
There is a certain primal conditioning associated with pain. You learn to recognize the patterns which herald its arrival after only a small number of repetitions. It appears that in this case, I am something of a slow learner.

I am finally understanding that being selfish is more than going after what you want. It means putting yourself first. Sometimes, that entails stopping yourself from going after what you want, even when you know it's within your reach.

There are some levels of disappointment, frustration, hurt, and anger that are simply not worth it. This is, I think, one of those times. All the wanting and the hoping in the world sometimes can't change that. Especially if you're always the one doing the heavy lifting. I know that at the end of the day, changes need to be made in order for things to work out. And unfortunately, it seems that whether or not these changes occur is entirely out of my hands.

They say that delayed gratification may well be the greatest predictor of future success ever devised. Perhaps it will be easier for me to forego the short-term prize when I understand that I, quite frankly, deserve better. Greater opportunity and success should hopefully follow somewhere down the line.
4th-Oct-2009 07:12 pm - Tired.
Long weekend. Let's see how this week goes.
30th-Sep-2009 11:44 am - Travel Planning
So apparently, living in another country for six months requires a lot of preparation. Who knew.
17th-Sep-2009 12:55 am - Leaving on a jet plane.
So I guess I start something new and exciting in October. We'll see how it goes.
1st-Sep-2009 06:12 pm - And... we go again.
17th-Aug-2009 12:43 am - Well...
The more things change, the more they stay the same.
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